It seems, not too long ago, I had a baby. An angelic, bright-eyed little boy who filled my world with insane amounts of joy. And then one day, this past week in fact, I stepped back and blinked and I was staring at the face of a kindergartner. How did this happen??
Life is crazy. It goes by much, much quicker than I would prefer. And while my heart broke a little this last week when my little baby let go of my hand to walk down the kindergarten hallway by himself, it also swelled with pride to know that I have done good so far raising a confident little boy. And while my anxiety is at an all time high of having to lose 40 hours a week of time spent with my little guy, it makes me happy to know he is excited to go to school and learn and make new friends.
We can't stop this crazy forward motion called time. We have two choices. Be a curmudgeon or embrace change and let it move us and improve us. I choose to embrace change.
So while the realization that the first chapter of my son's life is now locked away in memories brings an instant lump to my throat, I am pushing aside this intense sadness and focusing instead on what I am gaining.
Time. I am so looking forward to having a structured DAYTIME workday once again. In the last five years of my life, it was quite apparent to my clients what my workday was like: 3 AM emails, client meetings with a toddler in tow, phone calls at 10 PM once my child went to bed, editing on vacation, working at my computer from 11 PM to 5 AM only to wake up four hours later to make dinosaur shaped pancakes, the list goes on. Being a very organized, anal-retentive person, I hated the craziness and chaos, however, I knew it was my only option to be the mom I wanted to be to Jamerson his first years of life. I knew that this day would come and my time to be a pre-K mom would end and so I just tried to stay afloat while being the best that I could be. Will my life still be crazy? Of course. But will I now have more time to devote to my clients and business? Absolutely. And for that I am super excited.
So... expect to see a bit of a resurgence of me in the realm of social media. Expect the dust to clear off my neglected blog and your facebook and twitter feeds once again to be filled with peeks of all my beautiful clients. I hated taking a step back from this aspect of my photography business, however, something had to give. I had already given up sleep, working out, date nights, time with friends and family, what else was left? (hashtag: glamorous stress free life of a photographer) (hashtag: not)
I am so looking forward over the next few weeks of getting caught up with the rest of my summer editing and meeting and photographing all my fall clients. I am blessed, truly blessed, to have the job that I have and most importantly to have such amazing clients in my life that love me and my work despite the craziness that surrounded it. Much love to you all.
World, meet the newest member of the class of 2026. :)
First order of things today...take a nap!! :) Good read Jen, congrats on making it right where you are.
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